Yesterday was a very hard day for a few reasons.
1) I've been having some difficulty lately with my mental illness, and was told on Wednesday by a new professional that she wouldn't be able to help me.
2) Today I had a 10-page paper due, that yesterday was about halfway done.
3) My supervisor at work is moving ten hours away, with about two weeks' notice (her husband's company is transferring him), so she's training two of us to take her place, while trying to square away moving. On top of that, this week is one of the busiest of the year with a Christmas program this weekend.
So a lot of stressors. I was freaked out all day yesterday.
I have loved my advent study. I have loved filling my life with hope through the words of the prophets.
But yesterday, I needed peace.
So I bypassed my self-imposed rules and meditated on the concept of Week 2 - peace.
These verses came to mind:
"I will not leave you comfortless:
I will come to you. . . .
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you:
not as the world giveth, give I unto you.
Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
And He did. He calmed my spirit so I could get all of my work done. He restored my soul.
"Because God has been faithful and kept His promises in the past, we can hope with confidence that God will keep His promises to us in the present and in the future. In times of distress, we can hold tightly to the hope that things will “work together for [our] good” as we follow the counsel of God’s prophets. This type of hope in God, His goodness, and His power refreshes us with courage during difficult challenges and gives strength to those who feel threatened by enclosing walls of fear, doubt, and despair"
(Pres Uchtdorf, "The Infinite Power of Hope," October 2008)
This life is hard, but His love is bigger.
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"It's love so undeniable, I can hardly speak
Peace so unexplainable, I can hardly think . . .
You're a Good, Good Father
It's who you are . . .
And I'm loved by you, it's who I am."
(Christ Tomlin, "Good Good Father")